Saturday, May 27, 2000

How do you motivate yourself? Still want to look good for my husband, lacking a lot of self confidence here...?

I hate even typing this because I won't say it out loud...but I'm so insecure about my body. Most of my life I was, at my largest, a size 6. I got married last year, and read an old email that my husband had sent his ex a few days before we got married that said "I'll always love you" He said he just meant it in friendly way and he hasn't talked to her since. But I look at her, and she has an absolutely PERFECT body. How can I even compare? I got pregnant, gained more weight and then we lost our baby at birth. So on top of the loss of my child, I still carry this extra weight and thoughts of inadequacy.
I try to think about how much happier I'd be if I were back in my little jeans but it always goes back to me thinking, well my husband had someone with a much better body before me, now he has to look at this? And I get disgusted with myself. I tried thinking that me being disgusted should be enough motivation but I want to do it for MYSELF, and not because I feel like I should measure up to someone else.

Once again, I can't believe I'm even asking this because everyone I know thinks I'm so strong and mentally sound. I just wanted some advice from people who've actually been in the same boat...

Answer on How do you motivate yourself? Still want to look good for my husband, lacking a lot of self confidence here...?

wow.. :( if your not comfortable is it worth it? always feeling insecure and comparing yourself :( why would he email that to her just before your getting married, you just don't say it if your unavailable..

do you not have any good friends you can experiment looks with ? :( i actually feel sad for u because i know the feeling, but without knowing you its very hard, email me :) x

New songs that are in right now?

any new songs that are popular? for teenagers
artists/bands like drake, eminem, B.O.B., davud guetta, jay sean, karl wolf, green day HEDLEY :)


thanks

Answer on New songs that are in right now?

Er, check Billboard top 100.
http://www.billboard.com/charts/hot-100